My dream of doing nothing.

Sunday weigh in: 154 pounds...yay!!!

What's been on my mind today? Magdalena.

The cutest two headed turtle I've ever seen. As beautiful as the name Magdalena is, it's also clever. The bigger head is named Magda and the smaller head is named Lena. What you see between its heads is a fifth foot.  See the size compared with the hand in the pic? She's still a baby. And like all baby's, adorable.

On a personal note...
I can't PHISICALLY get myself to study for 2 exams I have tomorrow and 1 I have on Tuesday. Procrastination is at its worst.

Yesterday I didn't speak with my boyfriend all day because I had so much work.  He was irritated because it was our four month anniversary.  We never really do things on those months. I did something for the first month.  Apparently I'm a bad person.

I'm not really used to being in a relationship period.  I can't call and be with the same person all day every day. I find it really hard to balance life with a boyfriend.  Between college, chores, homework, other friends, family I feel I'm obligated to take the little time I have left to be with him.  Where's my ME time?
Particularly the me doing nothing part.  I actively enjoy doing nothing.  Me and my brain are often time enough to keep me entertained.
Like Peter Gibbons from Office Space stated:  "It's not just about me and my dream of doing nothing."

By the way, Office Space is awesome. Definitly do recommend.

Movie also happens to include Jennifer Aniston. One of my favorite actresses. Not because she's brilliant, but because she's Jennifer Aniston.

And yes. I am a Friends fan forever.

optimist for a change..

The pros of gaining 40 pounds.
-Bigger boobs
-I get to wear my mom's awesome clothes.
-When I lose weight I know what clothes will be useful during maternity.
-Fun to think if the dryer shrunk it or if it's just me...
-I have a skinny face
-Wardrobe challenge! How many dresses can I use as shirts?
-I can make my friends laugh by quoting Mean Girls' Regina George: "These sweatpants are all that fit me right now."

FUUUCCCKKK!!!!!
now. to the good stuff.
WHY IT SUCKS!!!!
-Once a week somebody asks me if I'm pregnant.

-Entire wardrobe filled with beautiful clothes I am not wearing.
-Going to the mall is no longer fun.

-Getting dressed every morning is an ardous and depressing task.
-My family feels the need to point out the weight I've gained or either question why I'm eating whats on my plate. (Wow! Thankyou for pointing that out. I hadn't realized I'd gained all that weight. It's not like I don't weigh myself everyday before eating, after eating, before shitting, after shitting, before exercising, after exercing, while ovulating and during my period.  Why am I eating this? I don't know... Why did you arrange a family reunion that REVOLVES AROUND FOOD? But please, lets discuss this further.)
-General self loathing.
-I get sad when I'm hungry.
-Just feel heavy.
-$100 short for joining WW and weighing the same.

I'm 5'7 and last week I weighed 157
Dream weight: 127
Will conform with 130/135
I know weight gain happens it just occured so fast. One of my doctors recently told me that a med I'm taking lowers metabolism and he has seen weight gain in all his patients.
Ummmmmm WHY DIDN'T HE TELL ME BEFORE.?!?! I've been taking the med for a year now. I feel I gained a lot and was just eating as I normally do. My mom calmed me down by saying that last year I was extremely weak, needed blood transfusion, and was VERY skinny. The doctor wasn't going to tell me to go on a diet in those conditions.
However, it is a relief. There is an answer to WHY I've gained so much so fast and why it's been particularly hard to loose. Now I have a focus point: metabolism.
Although I'm no longer going to WW I will keep track of points as I can and have bought a Reebook exercise video that really gets me sweating. I've also promised myself to weigh in only on Sundays.

This is a blog about me, not about weight loss. I will post my progress and if i need to vent, I will. When I succeed I'll post before and after pics. That will be awesome.

This week I cheated. I got on the scale today, Saturday. Whatever.  Apparently I've lost 2 pounds. Yay! Little by little.

so im supposed to write..

My friend Kelley is blogging about her study abroad in South Africa. Lizzy has a feminist blog. This d-bag I hooked up with who I REALLY should stop stalking blogs about math, love and philosofy. (I know you totally want to follow him..)
What am I blogging about?
Possibly this huge piece of snot that just came out of my nose.
I really have no idea.
I suppose this would serve as an online diary. A place to challenge myself. What exactly am I willing to post.
I have a dirty mind. Everybody seems to say that these days. But really, I do.
This blog will most likely be filled with nonsence.
I wont invite people i know to follow me so i'll probably just follow myself.  If things change, great.
I am new to the blogging experience. I can't even change the colors on this site.
I really just have to get myself writing.

Thoughts for today...
Earthquake and tsunami in Japan. I don't enjoy watching the videos.
Nicolas, my cat, is getting huge.

Watched Beowulf and Grendel for extra credit in my Medieval literature class (Gerard Butler <3 )

Slept a lot today. Have been sleeping too much lately.  Nicolas must have a bad influence on me.

The start of this blog is a true expression of procrastination.
Its 12:46am and I'm hungry. 

*Note: This was actually published on Friday, March 11 2011.  I wasn't able to change the url of my blog so I started a "new" one and copypasted this post.